To the Angel in heaven

Today I remember the birth date of a great friend of mine who was laid to rest 1 year and 5 months ago. As I am writing I am looking back to the word ‘great’ I have used to describe him with, I doubt it’s not mounting up to who He really was. Maybe I should have just said My Angel friend who was laid to rest instead, that describes him better for his character was more of angelic than human.

May his soul continue resting in eternal peace.(Amen!)

We all tend to say nice things to people around us after they are gone. Maybe we all mean what we say but maybe we only mean some of what we say as no one feels right to say bad things after they are gone. It’s totally human and understandable.

However, what I am going to say here about my Angel friend who was lied to rest are all true and may they motivate and challenge all of us to be friends to those around us and not just people existing in some seasons of their lives, mostly serene ones.

My Angel friend stuck with me through it all. He was someone I would jump to whenever I had a crisis because I knew for sure, He would have been there. And by being there I do not necessarily mean he would perform a magic and solve my crisis in a blink. No. It’s true he more than once bent backwards to help me solve my problem(s) and put a smile back on my face but even when he was not in a situation to help me resolve my challenge, He was there to listen and provide me with the emotional and moral support I definitely needed by then.

Having someone to talk to, someone to listen to my long talks that are maybe sometimes boring is among things that makes my heart cry whenever I remember I can’t just make a call and find him there anymore.

It’s true God has blessed  me with a few (in number) friends whom in their friendly existence they mount up to Millions but still, My Angel friend place is not easy to replace. Every one has a part they play and My Angel friend part is forever irreplaceable.

As I remember his birthday today, I challenge me and you to assess our part in people around us lives. Where are we when they need our help? How far are we willing to go for them? How do we act when there is some misunderstanding?

He once told me, “Miriam, rather nigombane na mtu, mimi najishusha na kumwomba msamaha ili tuwe na amani”. How many of us can be this humble and forbearing?

Not only that, My Angel friend also  did not show me any signs of success competition with me or jealousy. Something I have experienced at some point in my life with people who posed in my life as friends and sometimes sadly even as best friends. People who want you to succeed but not more than them and people who want them to be the ones to succeed only and have you at a distance, glorifying them. I do thank God slowly but surely I have cut them off and have remained with a few who understand that everyone has their own path in life and as friends we are to support each other to reach our full potential and not pull each other down.

There was a time when me and My Angel friend would talk for hours telling each other our plans and out of our conversation was new energy as we were all genuinely focused on pushing each other to be a best version of ourselves and to achieve our goals in life.

If I intend to finish telling everything about him, it will take more than just a single write up as the list of positive ways he has impacted my life goes on and on and on,  and therefore I will just end it here for today.

He was a very rare gemstone and I am forever grateful for the part he has played in my life.

My letter to Him

Emma, days have passed but still a day like this where we remember the day you were born freshens the scars in our hearts to very new wounds.

Your family and us your friends remember you and the place you had in our lives is still vacant.

We are being encouraged by the truth that you believed  in Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior together with us and for that our hearts rejoice the hope of getting to meet you and spend our eternal together with Jesus our Lord.

On behalf of your family and earthly friends, I wish you a wonderful countless time as you wait for us to join you and the rest of our loved ones before us in paradise.

You are being missed Emmanuel Robinson Sabuni.